So now in the group there are 2 couples.. So that leaves me alone... feels so...weird.. and now that thye have someone else, they are starting to forget me... the one who calls me his 'bestfriend' now will always pang seh to go out. I mean thats fine, but at least hang out abit with your friends? And now..me and my other close friend seem to be slowly drifting apart.. I guess I didn't really like her, I was just afraid of losing her as a friend. well I really hope im thinking too much and that im wrong...but so far all my bad feelings have come true... fucked up la... I cant even tell them how I feel... or more like I dont want to... I feel like im just gonna burden them if I say all this... I think they're tired of hearing me emo already... They just don't show it.. I guess its natural.. Sometimes I just feel so alone... There's no happiness, nothing to look forward to... the only people who give me happiness is my friends and family. but now there's the issue with my friends...so the happiness is gone. im just so damn fucking tired now... so many things on my mind..
